Maybe if I add chocolate to the process?

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I’m sure you don’t believe me when I tell you this, considering how much I actually knit (or, if you’ve been reading the blog the past few days it might not come as a surprise to you at all), but lately I’ve really had a hard time coming up with ideas on what to knit. Or, coming up with projects that I actually cast on. This is unusual even to me.

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It used to be that as soon as I cast off something I immediately picked up a new project an went on. I had so many Projects in pipeline that it was almost (but just almost) too much and I always seemed to have the right yarn lying around, or something close enough. That’s why I keep a stash, so that I always have some yarn in the house when I feel an urge to cast on a baby sweater at 2 pm on Christmas Day. I’m not sure I can do that right now (well, I probably could, I still have all the materials, but it would involve so much more effort).

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Now I almost dread the end of a project because I have no idea what to pick up next. I get an idea and then I toss it because there is something wrong somewhere. I might not find the right yarn or the right pattern and nothing tempts me and everything is too difficult to pull off.

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I think it’s a question about time. I dont have much time and more than that, I don’t feel like I have the time. There are just too many steps in finding something to knit. There is winding yarn, something that requires a smaller refurnishing as I don’t have an easily accessible place to put neither swift nor ball winder. There is also picking a pattern and that’s just not so easy as it sounds, I’m getting pickier and pickier it seems. I have demands on how it’s written and it’s just hard to tempt me right now. Once that is taken care of there is finding the needles for the project. I really should do something about the way I organize my needles but I just simply can’t figure out a system that would work. Any suggestions you might have in that area are more than welcome.

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This is all becoming ridiculous. I have the yarn for a great shawl pattern that I know will be perfect but there is something that stops me from casting on. What it comes down to, I think, is that I’m just too stressed out to take in something new, like a complicated pattern. It’s not a question about time, it’s about stress. I need simple patterns, or rather, simply written patterns, right now. I’m not sure what to do with this insight, nor how to solve the issue but I’m glad I’ve figured it out. Now at least I have something to work with.

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Pattern: Vacillate by Cindy Garland. Yarn: Stunning Superwash from Stunning String Studio, colors Charcoal, Cotton Candy, Natural, Dutch Coral, Fog, Linen, Dove, Petal Pink, Yellow Pear. Oh, so pretty!