Nu går solen knappast ner,
bländar bara av sitt sken.
Skymningsbård blir gryningstimme
varken tidig eller sen.
Insjön håller kvällens ljus
glidande på vattenspegeln
eller vacklande på vågor
som långt innan de ha mörknat
spegla morgonsolens lågor.
Juni natt blir aldrig av,
liknar mest en daggig dag.
Slöjlikt lyfter sig dess skymning
och bärs bort på ljusa hav.
/Harry Martinsson 1953
A night in June and you never want to go to bed. When life is at its high point and the living is easy. Wistful and beautiful and the knowledge of transiency. To live here and now and not then or soon. The present and the light and to remember the good things. There are a lot of good things.
I’m making progress. Not necessarily progress in my knitting projects but progress in my knitting nontheless. I have not yet felt the urge nor the energy to cast on something big, no shawls, no sweaters in sight, but I have gotten some plans for smaller projects like cuffs and mitts. I have plans and I have searched for patterns. I have yarn plans, they are not big nor elaborate but they are there.
The plans have not sprung out of need, nor out of finding a certain pattern or a certain yarn that I want to play with, no, I wanted to give knitted gifts and in order to do so, I need to knit them too. I figure that’s as good a start as anything, it doesn’t matter how I get back into my knitting as long as I do it. Small projects seem to be the answer and if an urge to knit gifts makes me knit, then that’s good.
These gifts are for people I have never knit for before and even though I think a handknit gift is the height of love I know that not all people see it that way. I just hope that these friends will like it because if they don’t, I’m afraid I might not want to continue with my knitting. Luckily Agnieszka wants a pair of wrist warmers and she always likes her knitted goods so I should be fine.
So, let’s worry about what the recipents will think later and for now just concentrate on the knitting at hand. Good plan!
Today is Knit in Public Day and I’ve actually managed to get a great deal of knitting done in public today. First I got a lot done during a lecture.
Then I hastily cast on a vanilla sock because I was going to the movies. It was a long movie and when it was done, this little cuff had turned into…
…this. Quite a lot, I must say. Since the yarn is self stripping I didn’t know what I was knitting so that was a surprise when the lights turned on again. Unfortunately I dropped a stitch in the beginning so I have to rip it back but I was well occupied during the movie and I sure knit in public. Too bad no one could see me in the dark though…
School is finally out for the summer and I’m happy, happy, happy! Knitting awaits me and chilling in my new sun glasses. I will try to make the most out of this summer and enjoy every single moment one way or another. Soon a new chapter starts but first I deserve a well earned break.
It all starts now!
I did indeed cast on. Victory is mine! Now, let’s see if I continue.
I’m carefully optimistic, but let’s not look too deep into it, because I actually got a little knitting inspiration yesterday. I have a friend whom I’ve known of for many, many years, but who I’ve just started to get to know and she unexpectedly helped me the other day. A few words really but they were the right ones. It made me so happy and I felt was knitters feel when we are happy and grateful, we want to knit. I have bought the yarn (allready in balls so that I don’t have to wind), I have found the pattern. I haven’t searched for the needles yet, that might be an obstacle, and if this is as far as I go with this project, I don’t mind, it’s still good progress. However, should this mean that my mojo is back, I am forever grateful to my friend and I will knit her many, many things. From now on, any step taken will be huge progress and I have high hopes for it. I just haven’t decided when it’s time to actually cast on. That, though, is a question for another day.
I looked through my blog posts from a year ago and apparently I thought I was going to knit a bunch of sweaters till this summer. Moahahahaha! No. Just. No. I also mentioned that I didn’t own a single pair of socks (well, a pair without holes in them, that is) and whereas I haven’t knit any sweaters this year I have indeed knit socks. Since August last year I’ve knit several pairs of socks and I now own no less than five pairs (and one pair of slippers). Socks has happened even when nothing else has.
When I made these a coworker asked me if they were for a child, she just couldn’t imagine they could ever fit a grown-up, let alone me. I put one on to show but she was still skeptical. And sure, they might be a little bit of a struggle to put on but they fit wonderfully once they’re on. Like a glove. Not to mention that they are super cute! I’ve worn my socks quite a lot this spring while sitting on the couch writing my BA thesis. It has been a cold spring but I’ve been wrapped in my guinea-pig socks and the cold hasn’t bothered me at all (btw, that’s probably what Elsa meant, she was wrapped in wool and wasn’t bothered by the cold one bit whereas her sister clearly isn’t dressed for snowy weather). Hopefully I don’t have to wear socks that much this summer though, but I sure am well prepared for fall.
Pattern: Business Casual by Tanis Lavallee. Yarn: Zauberball from Schoppel-Wolle, color 2079 Durch Die Blume. No mods.
People keep asking me how I’ve managed this spring and I don’t know what to answer. It was hard, I will try to remember that (you always forget how hard something was unless you really think it through). It wasn’t easy and there are friends I haven’t talked to, let alone seen in months and months. I decided back in January that I would cut out everything that isn’t work, studies and exercise. And that I did. What I didn’t expect was to cut out knitting. I figured knitting always happens somehow. And you know what, it doesn’t. Sure, I have 14 projects in different stages of finished but my heart isn’t in any of them. They were made, they took forever, I either blocked them or left them and then forgot about them.
In the beginning it felt weird not to knit. It felt like something was missing and that I would go crazy. Then, slowly but steady, I stopped caring. First I realized I couldn’t knit shawls anymore so I moved on to socks. That worked for quite a while but then I stopped knitting them as well. I could think that I was going to have a nice long evening of knitting, or at least an hour of knitting before bed and then no knitting happened. I picked up the needles and knit two rounds and then I put it down again. I caught myself doing it and picked up the needles again and knit another two rounds and then put it down again. Then I repeated this till it was time to go to bed. And the weird thing it that it’s not bothering me at all. And that bothers me. I’ve lost my mojo and I worry it won’t come back. I don’t have any knitting ideas, there is nothing I want to do and even worse, I don’t even care about the finished projects I already have. I haven’t worn a shawl in forever, I think I lost a wristwarmer the other week but I couldn’t care less. The only action my shawl drawer has seen this spring was when Agnieszka wanted to borrow one of them. I knit during coffee breaks but that’s pretty much it. I don’t log in to ravelry anymore, I don’t search for projects, I rarely buy yarn and I have absolutely no inspiration what so ever. I dread it when my current sock-in-progress is finished because then I don’t know what to do, what to knit. I know what I should knit (baby sweaters!) but I can’t even think of making myself do it. I don’t have the energy to wind yarn, find a pattern or rumble through the stash, let alone dig out some needles. It’s not happening. I might cast on another sock but I’m not sure I would actually finish them, that’s how deep into this I am.
I think that I might be tired and that’s the problem. I need to rest my head and once I’ve had a few quiet days (weeks?) on the couch, hopefully the knitting mojo will come back. Let’s not be worried, yet, let’s cut me some slacks in the knitting department and let’s see what time brings.